http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uumI-PdeZzY
Listening to this song over and over tonight, brings my weary heart so much joy. So many times in life, I look around at all the chaos that has been created by my own hands, and feel utterly hopeless. I fail to see past the potential that I can be and only see my faults. Ever been there?? Let me tell ya, it ain't no Indiana Beach!
Sometimes it is such a struggle for us to see past our failures. Sometimes it is so hard to accept that we, no matter what we've done, are worth saving. I see the damage that I've done in my life and struggle with knowing what Christ has done to make me clean. I sometimes feel so unworthy of that kind of love. But no matter how we see ourselves or how unworthy we may feel, Christ sees us as beautiful. The amazing thing about the God we serve is that, He doesn't look at our past, but our potential. If the one who hung on a cross and died for our sins, can forget our sins and look at our potential, shouldn't we?
I do have to admit though, it's in those times when I'm stuck in a rut, that God shows me all the times he's made something beautiful out of my mess. It's those times that I can see God's hand on every aspect of my life. God has made so many beautiful things out of me and the messes I've made and I am SO THANKFUL!
This year has been a year of such personal growth for me. God continues to open my eyes to the beautiful person that he has created within me. Now, I know that this may sound a little on the conceited side, but that's not what I mean. Once God opens our eyes, we ALLOW him to speak to our hearts, and we FINALLY LAY IT ALL DOWN AT HIS FEET, then and only then, can we see the beautiful person that he is crafting inside of us. Each one of us is so magnificently made and have the potential to be a beautiful person for Christ, but we allow Satan to hold us back from all we can be.
Never in a million years would I have thought, that I would be sitting up at 2 o'clock in the morning, blogging about being a beautiful person in Christ. Never would I have thought that I would be useful in the Kingdom of God. But our God, our God is a God of power and miracles. He can soften the hardest heart made of stone. He can use the bold and blunt to be His prayer warriors. He can take the person whose life is a total mess, and turn them into something beautiful. He is the God, who makes BEAUTIFUL THINGS!!
Wednesday, August 31, 2011
I am Beautiful Things
I am a Christian woman, who is learning daily what it means to be a Godly wife to a WONDERFUL husband and a mother to 3 BLESSINGS! I am learning from my mistakes and trusting God for my next step.
Sunday, July 24, 2011
Moving forward
"Scars are proof of where we've been, but they do not determine where we're going".
I heard this quote tonight while watching TV, and have been mentally feasting on it all night. Every one of us have scars from some obstacle that we've faced in life. We all have hurts and hang ups. But we all have the choice to move forward, from what has kept us from reaching our potential. Every moment of each day, we can choose to allow the pain from our past to hold us captive, or we can choose to start fighting back and move forward.
This year, God has been revealing this to me on a regular basis. It is up to me, and no one else, to determine how I handle my scars, and whether or not I am going to allow them to ground me. So many times, we get hurt and start putting up our protective walls, to keep us from getting hurt like that again. We push out those who are closest to us, and only offer a small portion of ourselves to the world. And having close friends become just a myth.
What would life look like, if we truly started living the way Christ intended for us to live? How would our life differ from the way it is now, if we didn't allow the scares that we carry, to determine our future?
I heard this quote tonight while watching TV, and have been mentally feasting on it all night. Every one of us have scars from some obstacle that we've faced in life. We all have hurts and hang ups. But we all have the choice to move forward, from what has kept us from reaching our potential. Every moment of each day, we can choose to allow the pain from our past to hold us captive, or we can choose to start fighting back and move forward.
This year, God has been revealing this to me on a regular basis. It is up to me, and no one else, to determine how I handle my scars, and whether or not I am going to allow them to ground me. So many times, we get hurt and start putting up our protective walls, to keep us from getting hurt like that again. We push out those who are closest to us, and only offer a small portion of ourselves to the world. And having close friends become just a myth.
What would life look like, if we truly started living the way Christ intended for us to live? How would our life differ from the way it is now, if we didn't allow the scares that we carry, to determine our future?
I am a Christian woman, who is learning daily what it means to be a Godly wife to a WONDERFUL husband and a mother to 3 BLESSINGS! I am learning from my mistakes and trusting God for my next step.
Friday, February 11, 2011
Integrity
Integrity....it may not be a word that is always on our minds. It is however, a word that we should all strive to live out on a daily basis.
Tonight as excitement was mounting inside little Miss Natalja, for the annual Daddy/Daughter Dance at our church, sickness was mounting inside of Bud. For weeks we had been talking about how much fun this night for just the two of them would be. We had the perfect outfit bought and ready to go. I had been secretly planning my attack on Natalja's hair and knew all the accessories that she would adorn. And the tickets had been paid for and kept safe. Now, it was the big day and Bud could hardly keep his head up due to all the congestion. Not a moment passes, without a sniffle from him.
As we sit down eating dinner, Bud looks across the table into Natalja's sparkling big blue eyes, and knew that he needed to take her to the much awaited dance. Despite however he felt, teaching his daughter how a man should treat her, was more important than a moments rest. With both of them ready and Bud's body packed with medicine, they took off to go the dance, for it's only a moment that she will be this little.
Tonight as excitement was mounting inside little Miss Natalja, for the annual Daddy/Daughter Dance at our church, sickness was mounting inside of Bud. For weeks we had been talking about how much fun this night for just the two of them would be. We had the perfect outfit bought and ready to go. I had been secretly planning my attack on Natalja's hair and knew all the accessories that she would adorn. And the tickets had been paid for and kept safe. Now, it was the big day and Bud could hardly keep his head up due to all the congestion. Not a moment passes, without a sniffle from him.
As we sit down eating dinner, Bud looks across the table into Natalja's sparkling big blue eyes, and knew that he needed to take her to the much awaited dance. Despite however he felt, teaching his daughter how a man should treat her, was more important than a moments rest. With both of them ready and Bud's body packed with medicine, they took off to go the dance, for it's only a moment that she will be this little.
I am a Christian woman, who is learning daily what it means to be a Godly wife to a WONDERFUL husband and a mother to 3 BLESSINGS! I am learning from my mistakes and trusting God for my next step.
Wednesday, February 9, 2011
The light at the end of the tunnel
So excited that I am FINALLY jumping on the blogging bandwagon (I'm only a couple years behind the times)!! I have been wanting to start blogging for quite sometime, but I am a bit of a procrastinator and have always had something in the way.
Although it's still early in 2011, I can finally see the light at the end of the tunnel. My amazing husband Bud, has been working at Bashor Children's Home for the last 2 years. While I am very grateful that he has had this job, it hasn't paid very well and we have had some tough times. We both have diligently been praying for 3 years for Bud to find a higher paying job. After so many applications and no interviews, I was wanting to give up. It always amazes me, when God intervenes. Although I wanted to call it quites, Bud continued to encourage me and knew that God would turn this year around for us. Bud found out that Elkhart General Hospital was hiring and instantly filled out an application. After so many applications and years of prayer, it finally paid off and he landed an interview. A week after the interview, the phone call that we had been praying so hard for, finally came. This, is the light that we had been praying for. It was an instant weight off our shoulders, and it felt so great to finally breathe.
Shortly after God blessed Bud with his new job, God also blessed me with a part-time job that I can work around my crazy schedule. Although it has been 8 years since I have worked, (at all!!) and I am pretty nervous, it feels so good to know that, I will be helping take some stress off my husband. It's going to be a fun journey, working for a great friend and I am excited to start!
Too add to the new jobs that God has blessed us with, we finally have bought a dependable second vehicle. It felt so good to go and pay cash and not have to worry about a car payment! It's nice to know that, we no longer have to take the "Gracemobile" (we call it that, cause we honestly have to pray that it won't break down on our way to our destination!!) everywhere!
I now see, the light at the end of the tunnel and it feels so good! Thank you Jesus, for bringing us this far!
Although it's still early in 2011, I can finally see the light at the end of the tunnel. My amazing husband Bud, has been working at Bashor Children's Home for the last 2 years. While I am very grateful that he has had this job, it hasn't paid very well and we have had some tough times. We both have diligently been praying for 3 years for Bud to find a higher paying job. After so many applications and no interviews, I was wanting to give up. It always amazes me, when God intervenes. Although I wanted to call it quites, Bud continued to encourage me and knew that God would turn this year around for us. Bud found out that Elkhart General Hospital was hiring and instantly filled out an application. After so many applications and years of prayer, it finally paid off and he landed an interview. A week after the interview, the phone call that we had been praying so hard for, finally came. This, is the light that we had been praying for. It was an instant weight off our shoulders, and it felt so great to finally breathe.
Shortly after God blessed Bud with his new job, God also blessed me with a part-time job that I can work around my crazy schedule. Although it has been 8 years since I have worked, (at all!!) and I am pretty nervous, it feels so good to know that, I will be helping take some stress off my husband. It's going to be a fun journey, working for a great friend and I am excited to start!
Too add to the new jobs that God has blessed us with, we finally have bought a dependable second vehicle. It felt so good to go and pay cash and not have to worry about a car payment! It's nice to know that, we no longer have to take the "Gracemobile" (we call it that, cause we honestly have to pray that it won't break down on our way to our destination!!) everywhere!
I now see, the light at the end of the tunnel and it feels so good! Thank you Jesus, for bringing us this far!
I am a Christian woman, who is learning daily what it means to be a Godly wife to a WONDERFUL husband and a mother to 3 BLESSINGS! I am learning from my mistakes and trusting God for my next step.
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